uneasy

tonight i had another class, it was really really good :)

i also had a class last week, which wasnt so good. i didnt write about it cuz i didnt really understand, but ill write up here now what i got from it..

this was about meeting your spirit guide

we did a grounding exercise and then went into meditation, in this meditation you had to visualise a light infront of you, just a small point of light, you take three steps toward it and see it get bigger, then take three more steps and see it grow bigger still, its light nearly touching you, then three more steps and you are in the light, you can feel the love and warmth radiating off that light, you feel totally secure and happy. now take three more steps to find you have stepped through the light and into darkness.

see in front of you a lake, with a boat on it, and step onto that boat, and just sit there, feeling the water lapping the side, notice if theres movement? sounds? what are the colours like? how do you feel?

across from you is an island, as you notice it, the boat starts being pulled toward it, in a calm steady motion. you are not afraid.

as you get closer to the island you notice a forest on it. as the boat pulls into dock, you should step onto the ground. notice what kind of beach you have landed on? what are you standing on? is there a smell or are there sounds? as you look at the forest infront of you, notice that going into it is a well trodden path, you should go down it.

your heading into the forest, are there any animals? whats the weather like? smells?

as you walk down the path, you notice this forest is like an enchanted wood, toad stalls, fairy rings..if there are creatures, they welcome you in and say hello. smile and say hello back and keep on walking. as you come out of the other side of the trees, there is a hill with a bench on it, as you walk slowly toward the bench from behind, you notice someone sat on it. do you get any feelings from them? what do they look like?

you go around to the front of the bench and sit down..


now from this point i cant tell u what happens really becuase on mine was my ex boyfriend, who was all his depression embodied it seemed? i panicked, my mouth went dry, and i felt sick and couldnt breathe properly. as i asked him to turn around a face came up toward me.. it was an upside down egg shape...with two black circles for eyes and an oval hole for a mouth..the face was on like...a long..tube type thing? that kept extending, so i told him to go away. and it did, and then his head was a giant hawks head, which freaked me out, so i asked it to go away again and suddenly my visions were gone and a giant turtle was eating something... so i was like arggggggggggggggggggggg and pretty much got back to the boat asap. and then broke down when we came back to the room.
wiiierd.

so, im sorry for people who wanted to meet guides, perhaps at another time.x

so from that i think i need to completely move on from my ex properly, fully cut all ties..so i can fully accept spirit.

ill post tonights lesson in the morning, cuz im flaking out!


love and light
liz xx